Feigned Dandies
i guess having a choice is what makes me be in this state..and i honestly admit that i made bad choices..and i actually stand for it!!
although inside me..i feel like im getting weaker everyday..i didn't regret it though..besides, i just loved..and that's what makes me stand for it!!
much is lost to me..my pride, my dignity, myself and my......errr, uhm...nevermind!! tsk!
i sometimes wish that i ain't got a good instinc..i know these dandies are just playing their games...but i dont care!!..as long as im with them..as long as they allow me to let them feel what i feel for them...im fine with it!!*shrugs*
there are times that they would let me feel "as if" they're true to every words they say and every actions they made...
well, sadly..that's the only way to feel the happiness that i've been wanting to feel from them..even if just for a jiffy...*sigh*
after all the pretense, after all the games, after all the shitz that they've put me through...i still long for them, yearn for their touch, their kiss, their eyes looking at me that would give me enough confidence to stand for what i choose...
*closed my eyes* - *thinking* - *opened my eyes*
every night, every single moment that i think of them...i pray for them, for their life, for their happiness...and i only hope that it brings greatness to them..
*sigh*
Stand for what you believe! - Lee Falcon
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