'zup with my "el romantikoz"?!
Rollie
he's been buggin' me for almost half a year now. there were no months that i wouldn't get a text from him, asking if how am i. i would simply reply "am alright, things has gone pretty well for me. thanks!", most likely to happen, the conversation starts from there - like he ain't gonna make it with out me, he wanted to work and correct things for us, he is so sorry for how stupid he was then - and many other bullsh*ts! he has been offering me like everything he has!! he's been tellin me:
ROLLIE: i dont know why you've been being mean to me, this is not about sex, it's not about money, it's not about physical attraction like the way you think it is, it's about defending my feelings and offering it to you!
LEE: truth is, i like your offer - but i dont like you!!
ROLLIE: im sorry to hear that. if my appearance doesnt appease you or my history, i just hope wthat we could hold hands together and run away. don't you want me to be your first and last?!
LEE: you know what's funny?! the first time i met you, you were ten feet tall, but now, you are tiny as an ant.
----> and then BAM! the conversation ended there! *whew!*
honestly, am not happy to hear those things from him and yeah, karma has done it's things already. whenever he talks about how "desperate" he is to win me back, i would have goosebumps all over me and felt like am responsible for his "insanity"!! *gawd!* my sympathy for him.
Darwin
told ya about him on my past post. it seems everything is happening so fast. i almost forgot where and why we started as "mere bf and gf" from being friends or simply clanmates?! can hardy tell ya the reasons why, as i have read on my past post, i blogged there that i decided to reconsider his offer because i liked him and i thought there is something that made him different from rollie and mac.
we didn't last long though, like i blogged, i decided to finish what we started before he knew it. i really thought this would be different from my past relationships but i was wrong, i found out that he also had a relationship with the other girl from the clan and ofcourse, it's a big insult to me *heh-heh* and deym! hard to admit it but this guy made me cry! uhh, he ain't really the reason why i cried myself to sleep last few days, basically it's because of my own disappointment. *disappointment????* yeah, uh because i wasnt expecting to actually fell for him. but if i wasnt "inlove" would i cry myself to sleep?! - NOT!! see?! *haaaay!*
actually talked to him on the line last saturday, we talked and exchanged everything we felt. he wanted to end everything for us and like i said, i did that before him! *laughs* so i wasnt surprised. i told him everything what i had to tell him. after our conversation then, i was actually thinking, could we start over again and stay friends after all?! - i texted him that afternoon and told him that i wanted to talk to him with out him knowing that i wanted to offer a friendship. he didnt reply. so i waited and told our friend to make me a favor, to tell him that i wanted to be his friend, if he aint cool with it - it's fine!
last sunday, he called and we talked for like 4-5hrs on the line at dawn! he told me how sorry he is for doing what he did. he knew that he hurt me and he is actually regreting for doing what he did. told him that am happy to hear those things from him - in short, our conversation went pretty well and we decided to put our past behind our backs. we are now friends and nothing more than that, but we are both hoping for the best in the future! am really happy! *wide smile*
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