bother
bother, is to cause to be somewhat anxious or concerned.
biological dad - this thing started to bother me when my half bother, Stacy, was busy knowing his his relatives, father side. and his father is not just an ordinary guy in this place, his father is a "dragon". so my brother was starting to get acquainted with the "dragon family". (argh!) on my brother's birthday, his relatives came. yeah, the "dragon clan" arrived in our pad. we were really under pressure. i mean we didn't expect them to come. they brought foods, drinks and ofcourse, their sons and daughters. mac belongs in the dragon clan - glad he didnt came, but his cousins did. i was trying to hide from the crowd. i was in the kitchen most of the time while the party was going on. i heard them talk about my brother and his father - about their resemblance, they also talked about my biological mom and they've recalled everything about the past. i knew i have stuck myself in the kitchen but i could still hear what they were talking about. i tried my best not to give an attention to it but i failed, so i was left longing for my biological dad. it started to bother me. (com'on, am happy enough to have a foster parents!) but at that moment, i started to wonder how or what could have happend if i would meet my biological dad, face to face. will i be as happy as my brother? will i be accepted as a part of their clan? will i be . . . . . . nevermind! *sigh*
past - they were all the same. they came and they were gone, with just a snap of a finger. isn't it so painful to realize that time would give you chances to talk, to share, to be with each other?! (is that bad?! i mean you should be glad that time has given you the chance) yeah, that's what sucks, ONLY chances!! JUST CHANCES!!! someone from my past thought that am happy being with someone else right now. honestly, i am not. and pathetically speaking i think that i'll never be, coz am stuck!! yeah, i have moved on. i mean com'on!!! it is so easy to move on, but it is what you left behind that makes it so damn difficult! i now am stuck somehow with my past but this is not about the feeling, ok?! i forgot what it feels like being inlove. what makes me stuck is the feeling of not able to forget being "decieved". so it affects my future. i already have the fear. (ngek, yun lang?! don't make it stop you!)
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