green monster
I criticize people who sing out of tune, I laugh with it. But am not a good singer, whenever I see people performing on stage or even in front of the crowd, the green monster would suddenly engulfs me. I don’t want to sing like Regine or even Sarah, I just wish I could sing like Amy Lee or Kathy Taylor. I dream of performing in front of the crowd with my band mates and growl all the words in the song. I love to sing, it is one way of releasing the bad feelings that you have inside of you. Speaking of bad feelings, I have different kinds of it… (don’t ask!)
Being a Tingog staff is a privilege. Whenever our monthly issue is released, I love seeing students reading and appreciating what we (tingog staff) have worked for. Most of the staffs in Tingog are responsible students, unlike me! I guess am one hell of a pig! Again, I can feel the green monster engulfs me. Seeing the other writers working their articles a week before the deadline is killing me. I feel like am sooooo behind. I normally make my article DURING deadline. Whenever I feel like working on my article/s, I will suddenly feel the lazy brat in me. New Year is coming, I want to change!! *fingers crossed*
Seeing couples in school or anywhere is also killing me. I don’t know if that’s the right term to use but that’s what I feel whenever I see one. I mean, couples that I know that have been steady for a VERY long time, say 3 years and more. Green monster is what I am whenever I feel empty and incomplete. I know that’s not what is lacking, or lets say that’s not what I exactly need for now but I feel frustrated thinking and asking myself all the possible questions that are long been in my head, so far, none of it is answered yet. *sigh*
