Dead
i want to actually dwell on the shits that's been happening to me..that's been happening to my life specifically..i dont understand why i dwell on this stuff too much, which i know that would only make me weaker, that would only make me pity myself more, that would only lessen my confidence, my strength, my hope, my self-esteem..
i dwell too much why should this shits have to happened to me?!...i ain't a super girl!..my heart is weaker than anyone else i know and yet...WHY ME?!?..
i dwell too much on why should this man i choose to love have to hurt me?!..why does he have to let me feel something deep for him and just ignore me as if im a stranger to him?!..why does he have to let me fall if he didn't want me to be his girl!?...WHY???
i dwell too much on why should loneliness, emptiness, sadness, frustations, and disappointments have to live long in our hearts and mind while happiness on the other hand [which we all wanted to feel] leaves us easily?..as if it's just passing by?!...
i dwell too much to myself..how could i carry on?!..how will i fight for this shits?!..what, where, how will i be after this?!..how will i deal with this emotionally and phsycologically?!!
*tsk*
by the way..my head is aching and my heart is breaking!!..yes!!..it is!!..im hurt..
i feel like im suffering of coma..i fell like a poisonous sword is pass through my skin, and that my blood is dripping..i feel like im in hell, slowly burning my flesh with lucifer's unmerciful fire!..i feel like..like...
im dead!??!!???!??....
*sob*
Stand for what you believe - Lee Falcon
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