A House, but Never a Home
i was never appreciated of my family..
Angie never recognize the works i've done for their house and to make her filthy-lazy-fat husband satisfied..she is often not at the house, she'd rather spend her whole day sittin' her butt in her office than going home and help me feed her fat hubby!! i have never spoke to her as my "mother", there are times that i want to reach out to her, but she won't even give a damn! so fuck it!! i dont give a damn either!! we talk like am the "employee" and she's the "boss" - as always!!
..i don't want to talk to Ray either, i hate the way he spend his everyday sittin infront of the television..won't even clean up his own mess..he is Angie's primary concern..and fuck his smoking!
..Don is the brother that i will never know!! he steals my things, he loves to sabbotage me to Angie, he should always be the "big brother" and for that i always have to UNDERSTAND, he is Angie's 2nd concern and he's a complete JERK!! or a "devil in disguise"...
...Me?? never "seen" in the family, always at the backseat, the autistic one, i am a "use-when-needed", should be the one cleaning the house, should always stay at home, never Angie's concern, should be the absorber of the family pains!! [fuck it!!]
i am drifting away from them each and everyday..i never knew them, guess i will never know them and they will never know me as well..i cant actually wait to have a separate life from them and live on my own with out trying to "put up their expectations to appreciate me"..i am tired of doing it! i am tired and pissed of dealing with them...if they want me, they have to "reach" me!! [to Angie, Ray and Don: Good Luck to that!]
"if i can't beat them, i'll join them"
"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon
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