back on track
first. i started to feel light again last saturday (august 12, 2006). i woke up at 5am and went to school at 530am. ganun kaaga kasi Jed and I are the "marketer" para sa cooking namin in our Culinary Lab na subject. nung nag meet kame ni Jed, punta na kame agad sa palengke. tas mga 645am, nsa school na kame, we were asked to cook our own recipe for breakfast, kasi it is our first time to have our culinary lab at morning. so i told my block mates (18 students, onti noh?!) na i have my own recipe. our prof told us to cook omelette, so i offered my recipe. tas when we are cooking, sobrang busy ako. hindi ko na napapansin ang cellphone ko. i mean, biglang nakalimutan ko na lahat and am focused on what am doing. tas after cooking, we ate. then our prof suddenly said "kaninong recipe to?! sarap ah!!" (anu raw?!) hahahaha!! natatawa ako!! tas our prof gave us 96% out of a hundred as grade dun sa presentation namin. (ang saya dibah?!) so while busy ako kakakinig ng mga compliments nila, my inner self was saying "gosh!! am back on track!! nasa tamang pagiisip nanaman ako!" (hahahahaahhaaha!! korek!!).
second. after ng cul.lab. namin, naisipan namin ng tropa ko na mag online. lalaro daw xa gunbound and ako naman net lang. eh tama ba namang OL din bestfriend ko!! waw!! syempre masaya dabah?!
third. acquaintance party ng school of business pare!!! pers taym ko nung saturday!! lufet dude!! ansaya ko kaya?! *laughs* actually, the dean said the party was not compulsory. so i decided not to join coz i know aabutan ako ng madaling araw sa pag uwi and it felt awkward to me when thinking of going and mingling with the other business students, except for my classmates noh!! tas the dean said it was not compulsory diba? but they said EACH student MUST have an attendance. ampf!! edi ganun din?! (honga!! aswang!) but that wasnt the prob, actually, there ain't no prob. i enjoyed the party!! there was no partucular dress code for that event, i actually thought that dress code would be formal! the heck!! but buti nalang hindi. so i wore my red polo blouse, my fave jeans and my white sandals with accessories (ramdam kong babaeng babae na ko dun sa get up ko na yun!). the party started at 1pm and it ended at 10pm. i came in the party at around 445pm and i liked it coz when i got there, it was eating time! *laughs* and while the people were busy eating, there were several band that performed from different organizations. i saw my classmate back in elementary playing the drums and deym he is hot!! *lol* anyways, after the eating session, nag disco na and when i got home, am soooo drenched!! *lol* twas my fist time!! love it!!
fourth. nakachat ko rin si ate joey, just now. (missed her) honga!! iba parin talaga dating pag siya ang kausap pag dating sa "kalalakihan" na yan!! *laughs*. i know na personal na ang usapan namin but i really wanna blog this. ganyan kasarap pag siya ang kausap ko about that thingy kasi "nananampal" xa. *hihihihihihi* (e kasi naman noh, kaya mo nasabing sampal kasi talagang tama at swak siya!)
te Jo: well.
te Jo: before i say goodbye (kasi mag-1pm na hehehehe), isa lang ang gusto ko sabihin sa yo...
te Jo: malabo ang darwin na yan.
te Jo: tama na yung ginawa mo na "nilayuan" mo sya
britleeh: no worries!!
te Jo: i suggest, forget him. go on with your life. youa re doing great there. youa re carving a name for yourself.
britleeh: yeah.
te Jo: intindihin mo ang pag-aaral mo.
britleeh: i know am fine.
te Jo: saka na yung lintek na lab-lab yan
britleeh: si darwin?! hmm, la lang yun.
britleeh: love?! as if!!
britleeh: di nga ata love eh..
britleeh: ehehehe
britleeh: bato na ko..
te Jo: hay naku, ako pa ang binola mo, gagah! of course darwin means something to you. kung hinde, e di sana di ka nage-emote ng ganyan
te Jo: being in denial of how you really feel, will only make things difficult for you.
britleeh: siguro yung kay dar?! dala lng ng ego ko. pero kht hukayin ko puso ko, dko pa love si dar. ala kong naramdaman na love.
britleeh: so am alright.
te Jo: tanggapin mo na ang katotohanan na may meaning si darwin sa yo, at nasaktan ka. and then move on.
te Jo: and dont say you have moved on, when inreality youhave not.
britleeh: ai oo, may meaning naman xa sa akin perooooooooo, bsta!! ibang level lang naman ng kababwan un..
te Jo: dont live in denial. acceptance is the first step towards peace.
britleeh: yeah, seeds of angst!!
te Jo: kung totoong "kababawan", then taht should not be bothering you this way.
britleeh: hmmm.
britleeh: ego ko lang to..
te Jo: its alright to admit na nagkagusto or MAY gusto ka sa kanya.
britleeh: kasi maxado expect na ... bsta...
britleeh: yeah, admit ko yun..
britleeh: pero yun lang naman...
britleeh: chaka i know he's happy..
britleeh: and ako din nman...
te Jo: nope, you DONT know whether he is happy or not.
britleeh: uh, yeah..
te Jo: si darwin lang ang makapagsasabi kung masaya sya o hinde.
te Jo: at ikaw lang ang makapagsasabi kung totoong masaya ka o hinde.
te Jo: what i want to happen to you is to learn to accept things without denials.
te Jo: ang hirap sa ating mga babae, deny ng deny.
britleeh: toinks!! *ouch*
te Jo: tapos kung ano-anong katarantaduhan ang ginagawa sa buhay, na in the end, sa atin din naman tatama
te Jo: ang mas mabuti, wish him well, and move.
britleeh: i know.. i know..
te Jo: at this point, it wont work with darwin lee.
britleeh: i will..britleeh: actually, am helping him..
te Jo: he strikes me as too cute for comfort, and true to it, easy lang makakuha ng girls
te Jo: masasaktan ka lang.
te Jo: kung kayo talaga, e di gagawa ang tadhana ng paraan para magtagpo kayo ulit.
britleeh: eh kasi ako ang hinihingian nya nga mga advices eh..
te Jo: naka-alis ka na kay mac, wag mo ilibing ang sarili mo kay darwin. alam mo naman kung gano kahirap "makaalis"
te Jo: and dont tell me "nakaalis" ka na, i wont believe you.
britleeh: honestly, as of now, dko na maimagine being with him.... never!! frnds perhaps, but never as lovers.. ewwww!!
te Jo: ikaw ang hinihingan ng advices
te Jo: ano ka ba, di ka ba nasanay sa style ng mgha ampf!
britleeh: yeah
britleeh: yeah!! tama!! actually, i label him as ampf din!!
te Jo: alam mo naman yang mga yan, hahanap at hahanap ng paraan para lang ma-maintain ang "contact" sa yo.
te Jo: basta. stop it.
te Jo: yun lang.
-- aion lang naman!! am back on track!! free again!! hakuna matata!! --
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