...it's ME, talking..[part 2]
I can wake up in the morning now and you are not the first thing on my mind. I have picked myself up and my heart is healing with time, but it still doesn’t mean that I don’t miss you and that I always feel fine. you hurt me more than I could bear. many days, nights I would find myself just left wondering, gazing with a lost stare. part of me will always be marked and wish that where ever you are I too could be there. the way you treated me was a disgrace, don’t you remember when once all we wanted was to be in the same place? I know I wasn’t the issue in your life and it was your own problems that caused me all the strife and pushed me away. would have been easier, if you could have said it all to my face, not ignore my calls, and end it all just like that. one day I know I have to get over you and deep down all the hurtful things you didn’t mean to do. but its because you could and never can rise above it all, that the only way for me is to find someone new. I despise, yearn for, am angry with, really miss the one person I lost. the same person I never really had, but time is on my side and everyday I put away a little bit of my pride. accept that you didn’t want you and I to be, but understand now it wasn’t anything to be taken personally. I know at times I will run in to you and now I won’t really know what to do. closure will probably never be found. some more tears may be shed, more empty moments will come around. answers to questions always in the back of my head, but I am gonna move on and one day it will be you that misses me instead...
*sigh*
sensible lee: don't worry lee, i'll help you with that! am gonna help you move on!
nostalgic lee: but, what if i long for him again?!
sensible lee: i don't know, it's all up to lee.
lee: guys, moving on is simple, it is what we gonna leave behind that makes it so damn difficult!! - that's why i don't know how to deal with you both! *tsk*
Stand for what you believe! - Lee Falcon
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