Teen Beat
before the terrible fall: i like to chase someone, and i like it when i don't know if he's actually interested in me. you know, i like the haunt and the chase, but even though i like the rush of chasing a crush, i ain't one of those girls who just does it for the fun of it. when i put out a romantic vibe, it's a real deal. if im chasing someone then i must really like him. and if that guy seems to like me as well, i'd take the chance, to the point i became impulsive.
after the terrible fall: it's hard for me to like somebody right now...with romance-seeking standards set this high, it sounds as if it must be pretty difficult for me to even snag a date at the first place. i have to get to know them first, i mean, even on the first meeting or date, i won't know if i really like them, i just won't jump into anything at all. in other words, my "chasing-like-a-cat" disappears - now "moves-like-a-turtle" in love matters. and while this may be a pain for a "guy-in-waiting", it's my only way of protecting myself against getting my heart broken down the road. see, when i get hooked on somebody, i get hooked on somebody, and that's what i hate about it. cause i know if i ever start liking somebody, then that might be "it", you know???
reflections: honestly, i miss being up for a lil game of a cat and a mouse - me being the cat, that is. but now am living for a change, me as the mouse and "them" as the cat (wanna know what it feels like) *lol* but though i like the game of romance, i am cautious with my heart because i don't want it to be crushed - AGAIN!! *tsk*
"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon
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