my prerogative

people can take everything away from you, but they can never take away your truth. but the question is.. Can you handle mine?

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

la lang...

nakakatamad!! sobrang nakakatamad these days!! sobrang init!! kainis!! gusto kong mag swimming! sa balong malalim!! (kumakanta) *kekeekeke*

anyways, i wanna improve my fucking bloggy! la naman akong nagawa!! sa haba ng oras ko sa net, la akong nagawa! puro error pa!! alang hiya!! la lng...sharing lang..la ko sa mood eh..atleast kahit la wenta ung blog ko, nasabi ko naman ang gsto ko!! kekekeekke

yung intro ko jan, it's xtina's eh, bagay sakin kaya yan muna nilagay ko!! asteeeeg tlga si xtina!! xemps, c brit din noooh!!! hahahahaahah

la lng...

"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon

Lee rocks!! @ 5:56 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Once Again...adoring Keanu!

i was disappointed when i didn't get the chance to watch the movie of Jack Nicholson and Diane Keaton with Keanu Reeves in "Something's Got to Give (2003)" i thought that i wouldn't be able to watch another Keanu movie that year or the year after..but, fortunately "Constantine" came up!! - one of the many good movies of Keanu Reeves..saw this movie last February 17th (thanks to ate Joey)

"Constantine" is basically about the balance of good and evil here on earth, crossing over and God's purpose..can also be about exorcism, demons, angels and the extra-ordinary gift that human possess. -- John Constantine [Keanu Reeves] has been to hell and back..he is born with a gift, the ability to recognize the half-breed angels and demons that walks on earth in human skin.

Constantine was driven to take his own life to escape the tormenting clarity of his vision. but he failed. resuscitated against his will, he found himself cast back to the land of the living. now, marked as an attempted suicide with a temporary lease on life, he patrols the earthly borders between heaven and hell, hoping in vain to earn his way to salvation by sending the devil's foot soldiers back to the depths. but Constantine is no saint. disillusioned by the world around him and at odds with the one beyond, he’s a hard-drinking, hard-living bitter hero who scorns the very idea of heroism. Constantine will fight to save your soul but he doesn’t want your admiration or your thanks – and certainly not your sympathy.

All he wants is a reprieve.

When a desperate but skeptical police detective (RACHEL WEISZ as Angela Dodson) enlists his help in solving the mysterious death of her beloved twin sister (also played by Weisz), their investigation takes them through the world of demons and angels that exists just beneath the landscape of contemporary Los Angeles. Caught in a catastrophic series of otherworldly events, the two become inextricably involved and seek to find their own peace at whatever cost.(synopsis) by the way, watch out for the asian girl who is possessed in the beggining of the movie, she have a line in TAGALOG!! (hahahaha, sikat ang pinoy! wo-hoo!)

i must say, Keanu Reeves is a hunk in his early 40s. he's definitly my one and only, most favorite actor!! love his looks, his voice, his skills etc -- he is one of Hollywood's most sought after and successful actors. his dedication to his craft is well known among his peers and is admirably reflected in his choice of roles as well as in his performances.

Keanu Reeves got me under his charm when i first saw hi movie "The Matrix", and i've seen it more that 25 times (i swear! my budz have a VHS copy of it and i borrowed it and i watched it over and over and over and over! hehe) i still have Neo and Trinity's lines on my mind! *wide smile* since then, i searched and watched every movie of keanu before "The Matrix"..

i've seen his:
• Constantine (2005)
• The Matrix Reloaded (2003)
• The Matrix Revolutions (2003)
• Sweet November (2001)
• The Gift (2000)
• The Replacements (2000)
• The Watcher (2000)
• The Matrix (1999)
• Devil's Advocate (1997)
• Chain Reaction (1996)
• Feeling Minnesota (1996)
• Johnny Mnemonic (1995)
• A Walk in the Clouds (1995)
• Speed (1994)
• Bram Stoker's Dracula (1992)
• Point Break (1991)
• River's Edge (1986)
• The Teenage Dream (1986)

these are just few of his films that i've seen! and i would definitly watch it over and over and over again! lucky me the video haus (video city) has a copy of his old and recent movies! *wide smile*

am wishing to meet or atleast see Keanu Reeves in person, SOMEDAY!! (impossible?) it doesn't matter, i believe in the possibility of the impossible! *hehehe*

i love this line: "Im Constantine, John Constantine asshole!" -- that's a good line, i can use that in introducing myself to an amp, perhaps, i'll use "Im Lee, Lee Falcon asshole!" *hahahahahahaha* (asteeeeg!! \m/ )

"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon

Lee rocks!! @ 7:22 PM

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Api Balentaynz

Valentines Day - which basically means, a day for all the lovers?? (bakit pang lovers lang?) well, i dont have someone special to me right now..uhm, i have my bestfriend chelo, my ate joey, my 'special' friend mac!! they're not special, coz they're EXTRA-special to me! i want to spend the 14th with them actually, so who said valentine's day is for lovers only? (you said it!)

well, it's no big deal to me if i haven't got to date with them (che, ate jo and mac) twas ok..i just stayed at home, sleep, watched tv and texting (as always, dull day!)..i enjoyed the 14th of february somehow.. *wide smile*

i didn't expect any excitement for the 14th, that's why my day turned out ok, though it's boring! am happy too! i mean, not in the truest sense, but i know am happy! and i like it this way! *thank God*

but though i don't want to have any commitment or any attachments right now..i still wanna know what it feels like to have a date on the 14th of february (no one invited me since! *huhuhuhu*) but i know, someone will...SOMEDAY!! *yi-hee!!*

"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon

Lee rocks!! @ 6:36 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

What's on My Mind

i was planning not to blog this time, but when am going through the net, lot of things kept on bothering me..so i decided to blog it and just leave these here..so probably if am off, this things wont bother me that much.. (these are not in order, whatever comes first in my fingertips :p )

Mr. Paolo Tristan Gonsalez - i wanna know how he looks like..he told me that he's 6 feet tall, his skin complexion is fair enough and a skin headed...hmmmm, i haven't met this guy, he's from Davao and an atenean, he's my sun pal for almost 3 weeks now...am interested in him, i just feel i lil excited when we're texting..*ladida*

Starstruck - i wonder what will be the upcoming movie of Lindsay Lohan? i cant wait to watch Keanu Reeves in his new movie "Constantine"..saw Andrew Schimmer on TV again, he almost got me under his spell. *whew!*

Pizza Freak - am cravin' for pizza!!! haven't have one for ages!! (define ages: 2 weeks? *whaaaaaa*) can somebody deliver me a free pizza? *huhuhu* -- uhm, home made pizza will do! *wide smile*

Weight Matters - 'corz it does matter for an asthmatic like me! i should atleast lose 20 pounds (nah, too ambitious) okey, let's cut it down to 10 pounds (as if!!) alright, alright! let's make it 5 pounds!! (atleast!) -- argh! see?? loosing weight is not my top priority!! *hahahaha* -- hey, i can be sexy though am chubby!! (now that's the spirit!)

SpongeBob - i wonder if the ET news proved that SpongeBob is gay?!?! i agree that Spongie is gay! -- coz he's always HAPPY!! *yukyuk* and Patrick is one stupid starfish! but I LOVE THEM!! WE all love them!! i wonder why we love gay and stupid characters? *harhar*

Dictionary - i want to be a walking dictionary!! (whatever!) hey, this is my blog, and i can write what i want! (yeah, whatever!) Ernie Baron is a walking Encyclopidia, so why cant i be a walking dictionary?? (that's what too ambitious!! you cant even memorize the table of 8 and 9 in multiplication, how much more the whole dictionary?) okay, okay, point taken! *hrmpt*

Loveapalooza - i will definitly go to the assigned venue and join the thousand lovers and have lip-locked with my boyfriend..but that would happend after my recovery..uhm, let's say, 5 years from now?! *tehee*

Tongue Peirce - i actually wanted to have my tongue peirced, but i was too scared that once it's there, it might get infected (hahaha..look at the brighter side, if it got infected, you wont be able to eat and you'll lose weight!) oh yeah!! good thinking! *toinks*

Dream Phone - uhm, my dream phone is any Samsung flip-top with a built-in camera (yeah, probably you'll have that after 10 years!) *hahaha* okay, perhaps a Nokia phone with a built-in camera! (whatever!) i didn't say i can have it that fast! it's a DREAM phone!! ya know, i can make it come true or not! *hehehehe*

Dream Land - Germany, Milan, Los Angeles, Florida, Miami, Hawaii, Australia, New York and Boracay..again, it's my DREAM land..so it's up to me if i can make myself step into that land and have a blast, even just for jiffy! *fingers crossed*

Gamble - am afraid to risk my money through gambling, but it's a sure way to have a chance to win money! if am rich enough, i'd probably go to Las Vegas and gamble there (o-oh, here we go again!) okay, atleast i'll try to gamble using my own money playing Tong-its, Mahjong and Pusoy-dos and or play Lottery (hahahaha! you're funny, since when did you get interested in lotto?) hey, what's wrong with that? am old enough to play lottery, or i'll join Game Ka Na Ba, not just a chance to win money, but also a chance to see Ms. Kris Aquino in person and a chance to ba a 15mins. star!! (hahahaha! cut it off!! just pray for a miracle to happend!)

hmmmm...still have a lot of things in mind..but i have to cut this short..am almost off!!

remember, keep on believing and have faith in yourself and in God, things will definitly go your way no matter how impossible it may seem!! *AJA!!*

HAPPY HEARTS FOLKS!

"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon

Lee rocks!! @ 9:24 PM

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Letting Go of the Dream

it is my dream to finally feel the love of the guy that i had devoted myself to for more than six years.

he knew that i was there. he was secured that i would always feel the same. he was so confident that i would never give it up. but though, he never gave me enough attention and i never had a genuine recognition from him. i drove myself away for so many times just so i could held on to my dream.

i thought that i wouldn't be tired of waiting for him to love me back. i thought that i wouldn't give it up. i thought that just having him would made me feel happy and satisfied. but things are not always what they seem, coz i got tired of waiting. i already gave it up. and i wasn't satisfied and happy just by having him coz i realized that it's not just "him" that i wanted...i also want his love. - so I LET GO OF THE DREAM!

just when am finally over him, my dream came true - that the guy i devoted myself to for more that six years has finally came to love me.

it is my dream, i sacrificed a lot for it, i had waited to long for this........and now that it's happening, i don't know what to do about it! i dont even know exactly what to feel, should i be happy coz he's here loving me? should i nag coz he was too late? should i be upset coz i loved someone after him? - i dont know.......

i accepted his love, but subconciously i dont love him the way i did before and that's hurting him, and knowing that i don't exactly know what to feel.......once again, I LET GO OF THE DREAM!