Letting Go of the Dream
it is my dream to finally feel the love of the guy that i had devoted myself to for more than six years.
he knew that i was there. he was secured that i would always feel the same. he was so confident that i would never give it up. but though, he never gave me enough attention and i never had a genuine recognition from him. i drove myself away for so many times just so i could held on to my dream.
i thought that i wouldn't be tired of waiting for him to love me back. i thought that i wouldn't give it up. i thought that just having him would made me feel happy and satisfied. but things are not always what they seem, coz i got tired of waiting. i already gave it up. and i wasn't satisfied and happy just by having him coz i realized that it's not just "him" that i wanted...i also want his love. - so I LET GO OF THE DREAM!
just when am finally over him, my dream came true - that the guy i devoted myself to for more that six years has finally came to love me.
it is my dream, i sacrificed a lot for it, i had waited to long for this........and now that it's happening, i don't know what to do about it! i dont even know exactly what to feel, should i be happy coz he's here loving me? should i nag coz he was too late? should i be upset coz i loved someone after him? - i dont know.......
i accepted his love, but subconciously i dont love him the way i did before and that's hurting him, and knowing that i don't exactly know what to feel.......once again, I LET GO OF THE DREAM!
"trust God, and let His will be done!"
-Lee Falcon
-Lee Falcon
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